Love, Laugh, Live

I have just finished six days of training with Andrew Bryant (my “boss”)…and now I have the same feeling I had 4 years ago…

Back then I had raised up after a depression…and I was starting to see things clearly again…throwing away all the limitation, worries, limiting beliefs, judgments that had made my life a “living hell” for some months

And i still have very well imprinted in my mind the image of myself, being at my grandparents house, on a bright spring day, looking at some family pictures after a long and wonderful walk in the woods (the flowers, the trees, the grass touching my feet, the butterfly that had landed on my knee, the water I drank from a spring, the feeling of liberty- all that had been part of the walk)…and in this context, and while looking at the pictures and realising how lucky I am for my life, for the wonderful family I was blessed with for all the friends and the experiences I had lived, for being healthy, for feeling so great after a period of depression…

And I just burst into tears…out of happiness and gratitude

And now I have the same very powerful feeling and sensation…when we finished the course, each of participants had to make a pledge to use the information we had gained in a way…and I just couldn’t say anything- because for the first time in a long period, I can see clearly again…and it is just an overwhelming feeling that I cannot describe…

but I truly know it feels great!

And I have the strong belief and certainty that in these last 6 days I got the understanding of my MATRIX…and of how I can create it in a way that most benefits me. And, unlike 4 years ago, when I did it but didn’t quite knew what I was doing. NOW I KNOW!!

And I can replicate consciously. And I know that I am in total control of my life and my emotions, and my behavior…I know that I can change whatever I believe in and put in more powerful and constructive beliefs, I know that I can change my state whenever I want to access the most resourceful one for that moment…I know that I can blow out any excuse that I have had in the past or will make in the future…I know that I can choose to be happy or unhappy – and it is MY CHOICE and nobody’s elses, I know that LIFE is the way I choose to see it and experience it and nobody else can tell me what it is or choose it for me…

And for the first time in a while I KNOW THESE THINGS! I do not just say them because I read them. Or because I saw some motivational movie. I feel it. I believe it. I KNOW it!!!

I know that I am in CONTROL of my life!!

this scene of Matrix talks exactly on my language right now…what Morpheos tells Neo is exactly what I am now experiencing. I can see my Matrix!

PS I know I may not make much sense… …but I simply had the strong urge to write these things down

Today I finally decided to get seriously started on a project that I have been thinking of for a long time: a public journal…a place to share the everyday lessons that people and circumstances around provide me with…

So here goes my first one:

I was talking to Valentina- a good friend of mine, and we were sharing different experiences that have shaped our lives.

One thing led to another, and Vali told me about how difficult a recent event was to her… her father had passed away just one year ago…

And as she was speaking, with her voice shivering, I could feel her intense pain…but at the same time, there was a lot of peace in her words, as she later told me: “I am at peace because, even if it hurts me so much that he is away now, I was there to tell him how much I love him! And it was the first time in my life that I actually articulated the words: I love you, father!”…

That was when it suddenly dawned on me: I have two most wonderful parents…that have raised me the best possible way and have always did their utmost to make sure that I and my brother didn’t lack anything…an they are both ALIVE!

…and all of the sudden I realized how lucky I am!!..and I felt totally grateful…

And one of the next thoughts that came to my mind was that I had not told them how much I loved them…and how much I was thankful for all the sacrifices they had done for me…

I had taken it for granted that they would be here for ever…and that I had more important problems (like what place should I travel next, etc)…so why should I even think of giving them a call show my appreciation?!?…

Funny thing how the sudden awareness that I could be very well be in Valentina’s shoes…and that one of them could not be here any more…made me think of reaching for the phone right there and then to call them!!

It was pretty much like that story :

There was a kid who was crying and shouting that his parents had bought him a normal pair of Nike. NOT the newest pair of Nike.

And as they were coming out of the store, with tears running down his cheek, the child saw a man, sitting at the corner of the road. The man had NO LEGS!

Then he stopped crying.

The lesson that I took from this event: to be grateful for the wonderful parents that I have. And even more generally speaking, to be grateful for the great friends and family I have…and show and tell them how much they mean to me much more often…and if possible, with every occasion!!